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Friends
It's hard for me to make friends, I spent most of my days at home, at school or at NERV headquarters whenever i'm needed. I suppose I could call Shinji and Asuka friends, but our relationship could as well be coworkers or classmate. I wouldn't call us close friends, maybe because I do not know how close friends interact, how to they talk to each other? What do they say? How do they feel about each other? What do they do together during their free time? Having friends sound like a lot of trouble. Maybe I'm better off without friends.
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Strangers
I hate strangers, every single one of the strangers I sit down next to on the bus, I walk past to on the street and just appear in my life for just a couple of seconds, to them i'm just a stranger too, when I think about all those strangers living on the same earth as me living their own lives, it's suffocating... and a bit terrifying for some reason. I'm just a small detail passing by to every stranger I meet, yet they all scare me so much. I'd rather stay in isolation all my life if it means not having to worry about them anymore, but I can't, I can't hide away forever. I'm still so young but it feels like i'm wasting my life away going outside makes me lightheaded and trembling and there's nothing I can do about it am I just stuck in this room forever? whats wrong with me